I Love
to laugh. I find so many things hysterically funny, even when no one else does.
I don’t have a quiet laugh either…. if something strikes me REALLY funny, it
will take me a few minutes to pull myself back together. It doesn’t take much
to set me off either, just a bad pun or perfectly placed sarcasm. So you’re
probably sitting there thinking, why is she telling me this? Well I haven’t
always been like this you see, it all started last summer. When I was so full
of joy from being with my best friends for days and also a little slap happy
from lack of sleep, that when my scrambled eggs bounced and landed in my lap I
just lost all my composure, my dignity and any shred of stoic-ness I had left.
I let myself feel joy so strongly that tears came to my eyes and I couldn’t
stop laughing for quite a few minutes. I let everyone who cared to watch see me
being ridiculously joyful, and it was freeing. Now it’s second nature to fill
with joy and burst into giggles, but that’s not so with everyone. As I was
wondering why, this question popped into my mind, “Why is it so hard for people
to show a strong emotion?” Like fear, why is it a ‘sign of weakness’ to be
afraid? It’s a legitimate emotion felt by everyone at some point. And joy, why
is it weird to be uncontrollably happy? If I am really laughing and smiling
people assume I am faking because, and I quote “no one is that happy.” Well
duh! But I am not happy I am joyful. I let the joy of the Lord fill me and then
nothing on earth can make my heart stop singing for joy. I am afraid that today
strong emotions such as joy are made to be shoved down and ignored for fear of
looking foolish. If that is the case then I am a fool, because I will NOT stop
feeling, and expressing how I feel because of America’s “society rules.” God
has given us emotions and feelings for a reason. We are created in his image
and He feels deeper than any human ever could. We just get a taste of the joy
God feels, and what do we do with it? Stuff it down and contain it, because we
don’t want to look silly. So maybe I laugh a lot, I wouldn’t trade that for
anything because My Creator made me this way.
I
praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
You’re works are wonderful,
I know that full well
Psalm
139:14
I
encourage everyone to fear no longer how you appear to others, simply be who
you are. Let no one take that away from you, for it is a gift from God.
I love moments like this. :) Unbridled joy and honest emotion is amazing.
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