I feel like a fool around the person I
am trying to impress. Well maybe that’s my problem. I am trying so hard to impress,
to NOT look like a kid that I am actually coming across as one. Isn’t that ironic
in the most painful of ways? When we try so hard to correct our flaws by our
own means. Then they fail and normally the exact opposite of your goal is achieved. But what
else is there to do? I mean I am still a kid, one who is almost grown, but
still has her kid moments. But being a kid isn’t my problem, my problem is I am
TRYING to impress a person when the only one I should be trying to impress is
God. His opinion should be more important to me than anyone else’s. This is
hard for everyone to handle, we care about the opinions of our friends, our
family, our class mates, the people we work with. But I keep trying to remind myself,
God is in charge of how people see me and my reputation. He cares about me and
wants what’s best for me, that’s why he, is his wisdom, doesn’t let me handle
it alone. If it was up to me I would fail, I would look like an idiot and never
get anything right. So I have learned, When I know I am getting to wrapped up in me slef, I stop, and ask myself, who it is I aim to please? Am I
trying to please the creator of the universe or the boy I like? My lord who has
brought me through many trials or the girl who looks down on me because I am
different? If the answer isn’t, 'The Former' on both questions than it is time to
rethink my behavior, and attitude. I am so guilty of this; I want people to
like me, to respect me, to love me, And there is nothing wrong with that. but I can
sit and fret and worry about that untill I am blue in the face and it won’t
change a thing. Only God can change me, fix my sinful nature, my pride that gets
in my way, my easy embarrassment at saying the wrong things. He (Jesus) says
that he will teach us and guide us
Take my yoke upon you and learn
from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for
your souls.
Matthew 11:29
You will
find rest for your soul. My soul that is trying to impress everyone, my soul
that is to prideful to admit that I am in the wrong, my soul that needs to
learn a lesson in patience, and any other issues that trouble my soul. God himself, says that he will give you rest for your soul. If you learn from him, and take his yoke upon
your shoulders, and that entails giving EVERYTHING in your heart to God,
even what others think of you.
Sounds
easy right? ;P
Pray
about it, God will give you the strength
“Ask and
you shall receive, seek and you will find”
~Jesus
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