Am I really THAT crazy?

Today has been a day where people are talking to me about growing up. It’s time to start looking at college, and making plans for my life. It’s a strange place in life to be, people keep asking me, ‘where are you going to college?’ ‘What do you want to do with your life?’ and my answer is simply ‘I don’t know, and whatever God wants me to do.” People give me funny looks when I say that. Is pure trust in God such a foreign thought? Is it really that odd to not worry about life? Because I am not worried at all, does that make me crazy? Because I don’t think it does. I enjoy this worry free way of life. It’s not that I am always good at this fully trusting thing, but I am praying for help. There is an odd sense of peace about trust. At first it was the most frightening thing I could imagine, to give up all my dreams and my hopes. I like to be in control of everything, I hate to feel like I am helpless. But once I got over my control freak nature I could let God control my life. Since I have lost control lots of things have changed for me. I had to get out of some unhealthy situations and rebuild some friendships (and that was no picnic) I have done some crazy (for me) things, I have learned to act on the Holy Spirits guidance, I have stopped fretting over every little problem; I am learning to let things roll off me. I am far from perfect and I have a long way to go to be good, but there is a marked change in me when God took full control. So I say all this to say, Life is full of change, and it’s easy to grow and change when you are not consumed with worrying about the petty things in life.

 

I have let this part of Matthew guide me as I struggle daily with worrying about the life ahead of me

 

5 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? 28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Why should I worry about how my life when the God who made EVERYTHING and who loves ME said “Do not worry about tomorrow”

 When it’s put like that worrying seems so, silly right? Like it would make a difference, it almost funny! But saddy many people live their whole life worrying about EVERYTHING. There would be such a lack of JOY and FREEDOM in that. So when you worry, because we all do it, remind yourself what Jesus said “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life…”